judi free!

OK folks – I’m a believer! In just 4 days (6 if you count the loading days), I dropped 10 lbs. It’s incredible. I haven’t been hungry at all because of the drops. The cravings are really intense, but they are starting to let up. It’s definitely a mental and emotional battle. For example, I thought June was sick on Saturday. I was so upset about it, that I ate 2 oreo cookies – talk about an emotional eater!

I’ll keep this updated with my weight loss. 50 more pounds to go…

June is now 4 months old, and I still haven’t lost ANY of my baby weight. The whole idea of the weight ”flying off” because of nursing didn’t really pan out for me. I’ve become increasingly self concious about my weight, so I decided to take the bull by the horns and do something about it!

I’ve started the HCG diet. I actually started on Monday with 2 days of “calorie loading” or “gorging”. It was pretty funny how unsatisfying it was to eat myself into a coma – I thought it was going to be a wonderful treat, but I just ended up feeling bloated and even worse about myself.

It’s now day 2 of eating very low calories and taking the HCG drops. I’ve lost 3 pounds after the first day and I’m so excited to weigh again tomorrow.

I’m writing this all down so I can look back for inspiration and encouragement. I can do it. I’ve done it before. I can do it again. I’m not quite ready to share my starting weight with the internet world, but I will tell you that I have 60 lbs to lose!!!!

Here’s to the new me!

This is my new phrase…as you can see below, it’s soooo true. According to the crazy fruit and vegetable comparison, my precious baby girl is the size of a head of cabbage. I don’t know why they insist on comparing my baby to food…maybe it’s because food is all I can think about these days – well, food and the baby of course. Only 9 weeks to go – here’s to the pregnant life!

Mark took this picture when I wasn't paying attention.

A thousand new thoughts go through my head every day (I’m conviced this is the reason why I forget so much “regular” stuff). Thoughts like: how can I get up as little as possible today? Wow, my wedding ring feels tighter! Whoa…look at my ankles! Is that rumbling in my stomach the taco salad or little June kicking around?

Every part of me wants to be brave and act like I’m feeling and doing great. The truth is…I’m terrified. What if my baby won’t sleep through the night, what if she has colic, should I use a pacifier? It seems everyone has an opinion about these things (a very strong opinion) and there’s so much judgement in motherhood. My friend can’t get the hang of breast feeding and she gets treated like she threw her baby down a well. The pressure is already mounting up!

As I ponder these things, I will continue to waddle around, put my feet up, and eat popsicles…

My mind and emotions have been swimming in the deep end lately. I can’t believe I haven’t posted in 2 weeks. That’s the longest I’ve ever gone without spilling my guts for the world to read.

I think it’s time for some spillage, but I can’t seem to get my thoughts in order. Tomorrow, I will have a good post. I promise. I’m not a dead link. And I’m not a mom blog (even though I can hardly keep my mind of my precious little baby girl, June). Here’s what happened in the past 2 weeks:

1. We felt June kick on the outside of my tummy for the first time – magical.
2. We had house guests from Missouri.
3. We are welcoming Joshua White into our home tonight. This will be our first “face-to-face” with anyone from the internets.
4. My face has gotten fatter – I’m fairly sure of this even though my friends swear it’s not true.
5. French fries make my feet swell up, but I can’t seem to stay away from them.
6. I started watching the HBO series, Big Love. It’s just wrong.
7. We had a snow storm and 2 snow days.
8. God taught me some lessons.
9. I miss my blog friends.

It’s OK to:

1. Not blog for a week
2. Watch TV all night long with your hubby and neglect the dishes, laundry and dirty bathrooms
3. Admit that some parts of pregnancy suck
4. Avoid the person that makes comments about certain body parts getting bigger
5. To be nervous that you won’t get to buy yourself new clothes because you’ll be buying new clothes for the baby
6. To be hungry at 8 am, 11 am, 12:30 pm, 3 pm, 6 pm, and 9 pm
7. To ask your hubby get you water, your special pillow, your laptop, a snack and the remote (in the course of 10 minutes)

Anything you need to remind yourself not to feel guilty about???

Since I’m so forgetful lately, I’ve made a list of things I continually try to remind myself of…unfortunately, my reminder usually comes too late:

1. Going to work in yesterday’s makeup is NEVER a good idea.
2. You like peas now that you’re pregnant.
3. You don’t like onions now.
4. When you have to pee in the middle of the night, it’s not as easy to “roll” out of bed.
5. You put your keys in your jacket pocket last night instead of in your purse.
6. Go ahead and get the size Medium in maternity clothes instead of the XXL in regular clothes, you’ll feel better about yourself.
7. When you feel tired on Wednesday and you call Mark to tell him you’re not coming to church, you will regret it.

Mark hinted to me that I might be a tad bit hormonal lately. Of course, I completely denied it until these things happened last week:

• I sat down in my bosses office to let him know I wasn’t satisfied with my review. Before I could say two words, I was sobbing like a baby and couldn’t catch my breath. The poor man didn’t know what to do. I’m pretty sure I didn’t make any sense and made a complete fool out of myself. I haven’t cried at work in the 4 years I’ve been here. It was humiliating.
• During our lovely Valentine’s date, I yelled at the sweet movie attendant about the parking situation before bursting into tears and demanding our money back. Again, humiliated. Good thing Mark saved the night by getting me calm and taking me home for a movie.
• I have been craving doughnut holes for weeks. This morning, I finally went to the quaint, local doughnut shop by our house to indulge myself only to be sold STORE BOUGHT, STALE doughnut holes – Winchell’s, I will cut you.  As soon as I got in my car, I cried.

I admit…I think I would have cried about the doughnuts – hormones or not!

I’m so swamped with work that don’t have time to check blogs, twitter, or write a post. I NEED A VACATION!!!

The best vacation I ever went on was to Cancun with Markie on our honeymoon. Margaritas and french fries on the beach are delightful combination. We wanna go back before the baby comes (sans the margaritas).

What’s the best vacation you’ve ever had??? OR Where’s your dream vacation???

I have a theory about vegetables – they just get in the way!

• Salad is not food – it’s like drinking water before a meal so you don’t eat as much. 
• Carrots, celery and cucumbers are just creative methods to get ranch to my mouth. 
• Don’t even think about putting them on my sandwich – I’ll have to cut you…nothing comes between the meat, cheese and bread. 

My dilemma is that the baby needs vegetables. There’s no room for me and my theories, preferences, or stubbornness. I have no choice in the matter. So for the next 6 months, bring on the veggies (still not in my sandwich!!!), the almonds, the ridiculous amount of water, prenatal vitamins and exercise on the treadmill. 

This may be the biggest sacrifice I’ve made so far…

After 2 weeks of parties, eating, cleaning house, watching TV and taking naps everyday…I cannot turn my brain and by body back on for work.

I’m fuzzy headed, confused and sleepy. I call this, the post holiday brain fuzz. I might have to bust out some heavy caffeine this afternoon.

How do you feel now that the holidays are over??

I guess I’m not technically a “writer”, but this blog is my haven and the people here are my support group. I cannot think of a topic or a darn thing to write. So I leave you with some words from my wacky mother:

1. “If you can think it up, it has probably been done already.” – in response to my incessant “what if” questions.
2. “Remember to smile.” – when I would walk toward her with a frown
3. “I wasn’t calling you…maybe it was the Lord trying to get your attention.” – when I would come to her because I thought she had called my name.
4. “You can’t remember? Maybe it was a lie.” – if I was going to tell her something and then I couldn’t remember what I was going to say. I really hated when she said this because it WASN’T a lie – ha!
5. “Some folks are so heaven minded they are no earthly good.” – oh…that’s a good one!
6. “Slow down, no one is going to steal your food.” – when I would hoover my food in a matter of seconds…little did she know that my big brothers and sister DID steal my food!!!
7. “All you need is love.” – in response to not having money or being in a difficult situation. This is probably the best advice I’ve ever gotten.
8. “Just say the name of Jesus.” – when I would get scared at night.

Did your mom ever tell you something over and over again??!?!?

The older we get, the more we learn that bad things happen to good, Godly people. We don’t always get what we deserve. And we aren’t entitled to anything.

I feel like I grew up this week. I saw some really great people with families lose their jobs. Some I knew were faithful Christian people and some who have been faithful to this company for many, many years.

I do not believe my faith would have been shaken if I had lost my job. In fact, it would have challenged me to dig deeper, live in faith and give my whole world over to God. I can still do those things, but I’m much better under pressure.

Can we perfect our faith if everything always goes our way?

1. I don’t like shopping at newly opened stores – they don’t have sale racks yet. Target without sale racks = SUCKS
2. I filled up my gas tank for $35 instead of $50 – it was great
3. I really hate to be alone. I was alone all day Saturday and almost lost my mind. I filled the empty space with shopping with strangers – probably not the best option (but I did get a new pair of amazing boots).
4. Every store I shopped at this weekend was crowded and busy – are we sure we are in an ecomonic crisis?
5. Mark and I like sushi now – we must be growing up
6. More than anything in the ENTIRE world, I love to spend time with my husband
7. I cut my hair to look “futuristic” for a friend’s birthday party. It was the bomb - and now I have bangs.
8. If you have a choice between Cottonelle  & Cottonelle ULTRA for the exact same price…why wouldn’t you always get ULTRA?

How was your weekend?

Cottonelle vs. Cottonelle Ultra - No contest

 

Tokyo Joes - Sushi, Rice Bowls, Hot Husband & New Bangs

Notice the iphone and blackberry, new bangs and sushi!

 

We know how to have fun!

UPDATE: I won a $50 gas card this morning!

I’m offically playing McDonald’s monopoly! I’m on a roll and I’m so close to winning, I can taste it (literally). I forgot how good the fries are and how the quarter pounder fits perfectly in my hand. Oh pure joy! I have been sucked in and it feels good.

If you would like to help me play, give me your tokens!!!! Here’s to sweet victory…

Monopoly MADNESS!