Years ago, I was bound up by so much jealousy and insecurity, that I would blow up at Mark if he even talked to a girl – any girl – yes, I realize this is crazy. It was so consuming that we couldn’t go anywhere without this overwhelming feeling of jealousy rise up. I was miserable, UNTIL I got some help! I went to prayer couseling 5 years ago and completely confronted the root of the issue in my life.
Skip to now: Mark and I went to Lamar for the long weekend to go to a wedding. It was a wedding for my husband’s ex-girlfriend (she is also my sister-in-law’s sister….if that makes any sense at all).
The wedding was filled with beautiful young women from Mark’s past. Some were ex-girlfriends, some were just friends – they were all beauiful, sweet and accomplished.
Then, I had an amazing realization at one point this weekend…
I didn’t feel insecure. I didn’t feel ugly. I didn’t feel fat. I didn’t feel JEALOUS!
I was free, and I finally felt it in it’s fullness.
I was happy to get to know these women and make some genuine friendships this weekend.
Even more, if I didn’t get prayer counseling 5 years ago, Mark and I would not be able to be in youth ministry. You see, Mark and I are always talking to the students – girls and boys. We have a heart for them and want to see them succeed. I see now, that God was preparing me for this time in our lives.
If there is an area in your life where you need to experience freedom – get help, get prayer, do it and don’t wait. God needs you to deal with this so he can use you in a bigger way.
How was your weekend!?!
Tags: dieting, God, How To, Jealousy, Love, Marriage, religion, Travel, Weddings
thanks for this post! you and mark are such a great example of a great godly couple who love God straight on through all sorts of adversity.
judi, it takes a woman of God to receive correction and change in this area. it is not easy, but you make it seem so effortless!
thank you for your honesty in this area, MANY girls will read and benefit from your testimony. how awesome!!!
Judi, this is so incredible! I totally agree with Kate…it’s a testimony to many of encouragement and breakthrough.
My weekend was awesome (camping/working) and today was even awesomer since you reunited me with my long lost Lamar rival, Diane Dittburner!
Hi Judi, it’s so inspiring to hear how you fought this battle head on by getting prayer counselling, and also how amazing God is at truly freeing us. Thanks for your openness
rock+roll
I love you guys!
I think this blog was a gift to me from King Jesus via you.
-Not that it was only for me… it was actually a gift from him to you via you… hahahaha. (If that could ever make sense)
but it really blessed me.
I fear i’ll be too insecure about the same issue in my future.
But i’ll be able to remember this and hopefully your counselor will be available.
“Prayer Counseling”, I’m not sure what that means. But I had to go through some all out deliverance.
Thanks Judi. We still need to set up a time time talk! I have been avoiding it…but I will just deal with it. Im glad you are so open. It makes me feel like I can be brave too.
This is awesome, Judi! It’s amazing how some of our insecurities can paralyze us. I’m so glad that this weekend was such a testament to God working in your life!
WOW. I was so encouraged by this entry. I’m dealing with some insecurities of my own, and part of my motivation to deal with it head on includes knowing that God has called me to ministry. I don’t want anything holding me hostage when I’m trying to help others be free.
It’s inspiring to see you speaking from the victory side!!!!
Thanks for your transparency … and for learning how to trust your spouse’s love and commitment to help set you free!