Years ago, I was bound up by so much jealousy and insecurity, that I would blow up at Mark if he even talked to a girl – any girl – yes, I realize this is crazy. It was so consuming that we couldn’t go anywhere without this overwhelming feeling of jealousy rise up. I was miserable, UNTIL I got some help! I went to prayer couseling 5 years ago and completely confronted the root of the issue in my life.
Skip to now: Mark and I went to Lamar for the long weekend to go to a wedding. It was a wedding for my husband’s ex-girlfriend (she is also my sister-in-law’s sister….if that makes any sense at all).
The wedding was filled with beautiful young women from Mark’s past. Some were ex-girlfriends, some were just friends – they were all beauiful, sweet and accomplished.
Then, I had an amazing realization at one point this weekend…
I didn’t feel insecure. I didn’t feel ugly. I didn’t feel fat. I didn’t feel JEALOUS!
I was free, and I finally felt it in it’s fullness.
I was happy to get to know these women and make some genuine friendships this weekend.
Even more, if I didn’t get prayer counseling 5 years ago, Mark and I would not be able to be in youth ministry. You see, Mark and I are always talking to the students – girls and boys. We have a heart for them and want to see them succeed. I see now, that God was preparing me for this time in our lives.
If there is an area in your life where you need to experience freedom – get help, get prayer, do it and don’t wait. God needs you to deal with this so he can use you in a bigger way.
How was your weekend!?!
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